I started a writer retreat a week ago. I was given a scholarship. I guess it was the Universe’s way of telling me I needed this online retreat. I’m a mother and teacher and by nature that implies giving. But I’m also a writer. Lately, the writer life has gotten harder and tougher. It’s become harder to get an agent because agents want certain titles that complete their lists. There’s lots of rejection. It’s getting harder to get queries accepted. It’s harder to land really good freelance assignments unless you’ve written for a well-established magazine for a while. So often we have to settle for the lower paying opportunities and those aren’t easy to come either.
As a writer, I take beatings that take the form of rejection from agents, publishers and editors. This is validation perhaps I’m seeking from the outside world. But what about writing for the sake of writing? What about nurturing and appreciating my special gift?
Already from the retreat, I am feeling nurtured, respected and encouraged. I’m in a safe space with no beatings. Just meditations, exercises and reflection.
Every time I put myself out there, I can either open myself up to growth or cower from rejection. The more I’m nurtured and filled up as a writer, the more I can respect the hard work I’m doing. that doesn’t mean I’ll get a positive response from an agent in the next hour, but I can hold myself up high respecting the work I’m doing.
From the online retreat:
Make the effort to notice the way your writer-self allows you to experience the world. You are a writer, and it is a gift to go through life this way. Acknowledge that and hold it close. Embrace the gift you hold within.
It’s now clearer to me that when I say this one thing each day, I am respecting and honoring my writer-self.
I am wonderful. What have you done that made you feel wonderful? Did you write a story, submit queries to an agent, (like me) write in your journal, learn a new craft or skill? Honor that and reward it accordingly. I am holding on to that truth as I make my way through the rest of my day. No matter what is going on around me, I embrace that it is the truth within you.
BONUS I am enough. There’s always more skills to hone, more places to submit and conferences to attend. But for now, as you learn, grow and experience life through your writer-self, accept that you are enough.
How do you respect and honor your writer self? What do you say to yourself each day?